Tuesday, December 18, 2012
None of this is to say that doing those good deeds is somehow being done with the intention of getting a payoff later. I'm just saying that if the universe wanted to slip me a bone, I wouldn't say no. I like to think that all of the volunteer work, and opening my home to wayward souls, and giving people a sense of family that they may not otherwise have is all good karma building stuff, but the truth of the matter is that I simply don't know what it is, other than good deeds. I do it because I like to. I am the constant fixer, I have to fix everyone and make everyone happy, and if I can't then I sort of start to feel like I have no worth. So maybe that's my karma? Feeling like I am worth something. I don't know. All I know is that as of late I've felt a whole lot like I've been getting kicked in the teeth by the universe, and I wouldn't mind getting some payback on that good karma sometime soon.